Um...well....my life seems to be going downhill lately, and I have no idea why...Last week I went to Nags Head with . It was awesome, but when I returned 3 days ago, I found my familiar, Benny, the grandfather of all of my adorable kittens, in a grave state. He had started dying long before I left, but I didn't know it. When I did leave, he started getting worse, probably from loneliness... He waited for me to get home, so he could say goodbye, pitifully I might add. I held him and stayed with him, crying like there was no tomorrow until he finally passed. Afterwards, I found out that Jake and Bella, my favorite kitten, and another one of my kittens, had gone missing when I was gone. .><. I can't stand all of this pain... I can still feel Benny with me, since he was my familiar, but it pains me to look at pictures of the two kittens, especially Jake... First BJ, now Benny, Jake, and Bella... Why am I being punished?! I don't know what I did, but it seems like I'm losing all that I love... Comfort needed again ><

*sigh* I don't know how to start this. When I went out in the porch to feed the two tom cats this morning since they aren't allowed in the house anymore (they pee on everything), I went into the furnace room where the cat food is and my cat BJ wasn't there like he usually is. He hadn't been for 3 days and there were a bunch of flies out there and it smelled bad. I didn't think much of it because it's our garbage room that we use before carrying it to the dump. I went inside and asked my dad if he could go find BJ because I was worried about him. My dad went out and a few minutes later, he came back and my mom asked if he found him. My dad replied with a sullen "Yeah". My mom and I both asked at the same time, "Is he alright?" and my dad answered, "No, he's not. He's dead." >< I broke down completely. Next thing I knew, I was on the floor screaming, "No!! BJ!! My baby!!" My dad had found him in a box. We aren't sure what happened. He might of had heart failure from fighting with Danny, his brother, or maybe he was just sickly and we didn't know it...either way, I've made a tribute to him. [link] Please look at it >< I want people to know what he looked like...the other cats in the pictures are his siblings...

Stole a quiz yet again XDD lol We must of all been losers when we were little XDDD

You remember watching:
[ ] Kenan and Kel
[x] Doug
[x] Pinky & the Brain
[ ] AAAAAAAH Real Monsters!
[X] Rocko's Modern Life
[X] Animaniacs
[X] Gargoyles
[x] Hey Arnold!
[x] Out of the Box
[x] Beavis & Butt-Head

[x] You’ve ever ended a sentence with the word "PSYCHE!"
[ ] You just can’t resist finishing this: "In west Philadelphia born and raised...".

You remember:

[x] Step by Step
[x] Family Matters
[x] Dinosaurs
[x] Boy Meets World
[x] Full House
[x] You remember when it was actually worth getting up early on a Saturday to watch cartoons


When everything was settled by:

[x] "Rock/paper/scissors"
[ ] "Bubble gum, bubble gum in a dish"
[ ] "Miss Mary Mack"

[x] When kickball was something you did everyday
[x] You used to listen to the radio all day long
[x] Just to record your FAVORITE song of ALL time on a tape

[x] You remember Super Nintendo and Sega Genesis
[x] You remember The Original Game Boy
[x] You always wanted to send in a tape to America’s Funniest Home Videos...

You remember watching:

[x] The Magic School Bus
[x] Wishbone (I loved that little doggie)
[x] Reading Rainbow
[ ] Ghostwriter
[ ] Are you Afraid of the Dark
[x] You remember when Yo-Yo's were cool
[x] You remember those "Where’s Waldo" books
[x] You remember eating Warheads and Gushers

You listen / listened to:
[x] KoRn
[X] Tool
[ ] Garbage
[x] Green Day
[ ] Clutch
[ ] Jesus Jones
[ ] White Zombie
[ ] Violent Femmes
[ ] Beastie Boys
[ ] Danzig
[x] Red Hot Chili Peppers
[ ] Primus
[ ] Slayer
[ ] Pantera
[ ] GWAR
[ ] Ministry

BTW See you all in Heaven, cause we're dying tomorrow >< North Korea's gonna bomb the U.S. How nice of them -_- Thank you so much NK. We love you too.

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lol Do it XD

Well, and I finally met in person on the 22nd of May! It was by far the best few days of my life! I mish him so much now, but least we got to meet! I would tell the whole story, but he already has *sigh* so yeah....read this: [link] I'm so happy I made the choice to date on dA because I would have never found a guy around here that treats me so well and loves me so much ^^ Thanks deviantART!


Btw, I'm so uber sick right now I feel like I'm dying >< lol Guess I'm "love sick" *shot down then stabbed* XD